March 31, 2011
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13 days till D-Day!!
I can’t believe we’ve made it this far! I had spotting at 21 weeks, and four hours of real labor at 34 weeks, but we made it through and here we are at just 13 days away. My iron still hasn’t gone up, so we discussed worst-case-scenario options at my Monday appointment. Apparently it all depends on how much blood I lose during delivery. A one or two point drop is normal in delivery. If I drop two points, I will need a blood transfusion. But the real comfort and blessing is that my dear husband is the same blood type as me!
He is such a comfort and support to me in this time. The boys and I have been sick and I am so weary. We were putting the boys to bed last night and Jackson was all wound up and whacked me in the face with a board book, giving me a busted lip. It broke me. I started sobbing uncontrollably. And my sweet husband is such a warm safety net. He wraps me in his arms and I feel my whole body relax, all the tension flows out of me. I thought I loved him when I married him, but now I know and love him so much more than I ever imagined. He offers to give me a night out with friends…but he is my best friend and I can’t imagine spending the evening away from him. Nobody is as comforting as he is. I share everything, even my darkest secrets and he still loves me. I remember how horrible my labor was with Jackson. How on that Thursday, after two nights of no sleep at all, and feeling poured out and empty, he carried me through when I was spent. What a neat bonding experience it was for us. It brought us so close. Though I could never hope for such a difficult labor ever again, I do look forward to whatever is in store because I know it will only bring us closer. What a treasure my husband is! What a blessing to be sharing this life with him
